i'm scatter brained when i'm tired

what you probably don't know about me is that i'm scattered brained when i'm tired. I have enough of a problem already verbalizing my thoughts. asking questions for me sometimes is just difficult. what i think and what comes out of my my mouth are two separate things. combine this with fatigue and you get twisted, construed phrases flying in all directions. I try to not speak much when i'm tired because what i try to get across is totally not what i want to say. Things that make sense to me don't make sense to others. i think about things differently and sometimes draw connections that just don't work for other people. plus, if i'm trying to say "do u have your output on you" they hear "the thing on the computer, with u can i have it" so when i try to explain something or ask a question, they ALWAYS just look at me like "...the fuck?"

so yea, that happened today. twice i think. i run a different schedule than most. a bit of night owl. stay up till 3 on the regular. but this probably won't continue since Styker is not longer employed by westwood one.

screw u westwood one!

tired but not really

exhausted from working non-stop since saturday. so tired of writing i'm tired of my own prose and syntax. i would post more but i seriously can't stand typing and writing anymore. i wish i had different styles of writing so i could never get tired of doing it.

don't i make you proud? time is running out

blackjack

do you like fish sticks?
do you like blackjack? cause i just spent 15 man hours coding that sh!t. and guess what, i've got more coding to do for VBA and stuff. i have some work to do for next week. a good amount of assignments to finish/start. i don't care i'll finish them all (because I have to.) provided i don't procrastinate.

DLed roth's album. it's not bad. had a few good jams on it. will i be buying it? no, not like i buy music anymore right?

i need a job. i really need to look actually. and i need to renew my license cause heaven knows i can't pass the written exam again.

why is it raining in April? need some of those May flowers already.

The landlord is showing our house tomorrow. she has the balls, and really she does, to ask us to keep cleaning the bathrooms and stove after she did what she did last week to brian and me. screw her. hey landlord TELL ME HOW MY ASS TASTE clean your own sh!t

i need to go to bedddd.
all through the night while you live it up i'm off to sleep

one day baby you'll realize that i'm the one day baby

the juan maclean - one day baby (surkin remix) is a face melter. classic surkin remix out of nowhere. please give it a listen. has those 80s house pianos. win

jadakiss spits hot fire on his album. why do i like his stuff? when he tells it it sounds so real. his voice sounds raspy, tired from hours of work. sounds like a driven man. the manifestation of hustle, exhaustion and strain. hear it in his voice

it's 5 am and i think i just heard my roommate get up to leave for the airport. he told me earlier (11-pm) that his flight left at 7am. i'm guessing he's getting ready upstairs. if he sees me up he'll think i'm a weirdo for sure.

once he leaves that's it. i'm the only one here this weekend. RAVE TIME. whole house shakes and just one subwoofer. imagine the 2 together. eruptioonnn.

bynum was back tonight. looked good. not bad for being out 32 games. i've officially blown about $40 on wingos. man i love that stuff. national chain coming soon...off to bed now son. peace. hope to wake up by noon. we'll see

one day baby, you'll realize that i'm the one day baby...


ya and went to mass today. will go again tomorrow. went to the gym before. no one there. court all to myself. make it rainnnnn. good friday today. i'm catholic

p.s. the ipod nano screen went dead today. overheated. 4 yrs it lasted. time for a new one. Inscription wil read:

can't knock the hustle
erik_m

semi productive night tonight

got some ish done so i could watch the game. also had a quick group meeting tonight with my derivatives group. so we decided we're going to be long copper. we strip the old copper off the foreclosed homes and resell it on the market. Down is bad, up is good = +F! Brilliant! Hope to get up early tom and studying for that quiz/test on Wed. Guess that means i'll be downloading the loveline podcast tom morning too.

aubrey o'day was kinda boring last night. she's just boring in gen. Maybe she's diff in person?

championship game tonight was saddening. was hoping for a nail-biter but UNC just wasn't having any of it. i like UNC. georgetown will hopefully get back to that level.

i need to stay on the ball with all my classes. lots of shiz to be done these last few weeks. i need a job. so that means i need to start applying...

i found out that we get next monday off for easter also. greattt. 5 days at home alone/with scott and his crew. FMLL!!!

my darling don't lose sight of my eyes

the dream makes 1 hit an hour

when i see crap like this i think "Wtf is wrong with me. why am i not this creative." i need to make beats. damnnnn

really exhausted. didn't get to take a long enough nap. i blasteeddd through that paper for computer science. sat down for 4 hrs and didn't even get up to get a drink. it was really draining but at least i got that thing done. get it away from mee!

whilst writing that effing paper i missed 1. the laker game 2. TUF 3. UFC fight night 4. LOST. i am so lost on LOST. haven't been caught up in a while. i have so much to catch up on. i have comp sci to thank for that. and VBA too.

Talked to my IF professor. turns out he went UCLA undergrad. kids went to claremont high, which is right by Webb, my high school. talked to him for a while. good times! he's a nice guy

well time to shower then bed. DRAINED
word up

spent

totally tired now. managed to get in a good workout tonight. back just in time to see FOB on leno. pete's fashion wasn't operating at 100%. nice jeans dork.

i was so stoked to hear the dudes on loveline last night. trohman hit me up on twitter. that was legit. made my night however lame that sounds.

speaking of twitter. teagan presley is freaking amazing. i love the fact that she interacts with her fans online. she's replied to me enough for me to be like DAMN. this chick roolz. and she's only 2 yrs older than me!...

sashagrey is also a dime piece. she replies to fans too. super cool

not too happy that i have to write this paper for thursday. very boring and pointless. Fvck busy work from professors. last time i'll have to write something like this. school is ending VERY soon.

i'll miss sleeping in my own bed here. my own room.

i WON'T miss going to class, doing hw, writing papers, putting up with stupid professors

I will miss going to class to see my friends, doing hw with my buddies, staying up late for no reason even though i have to write a paper. schooling professors and making them give me points back.

college was meant for a few things. i think learning new trivia wasn't one of them. you learn about yourself and you make new friends. you learn to do laundry, you kiss girls (to say the least), you drink, you have fun. the last i'll remember is what textbook i bought, or didn't buy. or what grade i got in this or that course. i couldn't stand being over here and i bitch about that a lot. but i like georgeotwn. never again will i be surrounded with so many people my own age. never again will i have this smaller amount of responsibility. i can sleep in and when i don't want to go to class and simply say "fcuk it."

school is the gift and the curse.
would i do it again if i could...errrrr probably not. too much work makes jack a dull boy.

bed time now. 4:15am. class at 10:15. another great wednesday. TUF on tom and UFC fight night.

p.s. http://yfrog.com/0g4sij